The dream

Right now my dream is in flux and constantly changing in little ways. Getting to hangout with my son and not have to send him to a daycare is THE DREAM. But what makes it better is that I'm also doing something outside the home that fulfills my business /work oriented side. I'm getting to stretch my self in a way that parenting doesn't. This is really life giving. This also really makes me excited to get my Doula business up and running. As much fun as it is to be doing the work to get me there I am so excited to hit the ground running and be able to be a part of the birthing community. I keep seeing birth videos and photo shoots and other then making me really want to have more kids; it pumps me up to be able to be a helper to those families.

This leaves me at the point of wanting to figure out what I specifically have to offer families, what makes me special.

I'm passionate about so many things but I don't want to spread my self thin. Right now I'm dipping into the babywearing world and becoming an educator and I'm also trying to tap into my creative side so I can make something special for my clients as a keep sake from their birth experience. This is turning out to be the tougher task as my creative side hasn't been worked out lately.

On top of these more long term plans I have to find something to do to bring in an income to help my family out and make it do able to pursue these long term goals. So like a lot of mothers I've turned to childcare. Best case scenario would be for me to find a family that is comfortable with me watching their child in my home. That way I don't have to get my son up early and it would be a comfortable place with all of my back up's of toys and child carriers etc. But I keep having to remind my self to be flexible as the main thing is to stay with my son and make some money.

These things all at the moment seem far away and that I have the time to decide what will be best. But in reality my maternity leave ends in October. That is only a month and a bit away. So things will start changing pretty quickly on me. So all I can do right now is pray for the right jobs and opportunities to fall into place.